June 1st

Well they removed the ventilator Friday morning from Grandpa. He appears to be in no pain and is resting easy, but there is no response from him. The doctor tells us that it could be a matter of days or weeks, he is not sure. They have provisions for him if the pain becomes unbearable. I went to see him Thursday evening and he looked a lot better then he did on Sunday, and my mom said he seems at peace and looks like himself now. Right now it is just a matter of time. I am trying to reconcile this, but it is so hard. I know he had no desire to be a vegetable or hooked up to life support, so this is what he wants, but it is still hard to let him go. My dad too my daughter down this weekend to see him since they moved him to a different room and he is allowed younger visitors. I think everyone has said good-bye except her so I am hoping that he is waiting for her to tell him good-bye. She is going to miss him. She still talks about Great Mama and is trying so hard to understand what death is. It is hard even for a normal child, but one with Autism is a little harder to explain things to.
Summer scrapfest started yesterday on lifetime moments. I wasn't going to sign up because of all that was going on, but this will get me motivated to get my albums caught up. I have hundreds of pictures sitting here needing done. I am just not wanting to, but I have gotten 3 pages done and earned 103 unconfirmed points towards my 200. I am excited. I will work on them some more tomorrow. Right now I am enjoying my alone time. DH is at work until 5:00, the stepson and his fiance and baby are in North carolina, and my DD is at my parents until my Dh gets home tonight. I have to go in to work at 4:00 but still I have 4 hours to do nothing but relax and enjoy the quiet. Have a great day, I know I will!!